I wrote this post several weeks ago, but never posted it! Fun little keepsake from during the pregnancy, though, I think 🙂 (Side note: It’s crazy to see how fast the tummy grows! I haven’t noticed it from day to day, but I am so much BIGGER now than I was when we took this picture with our “burrito” sized baby. So cute!)
I’ve been MIA for a few weeks. With the crux of finals and applying for new jobs, life has been crazy. But the semester is nearly over! I will be much more present and finally able to focus more on this blog in just a couple days. Thank goodness!
We are so looking forward to the coming months.
Carter is starting a new seasonal job working outdoors for the county, working just four days a week and getting off by 4:30 each day… it sounds like a dream! We’ll both also be working with our dear friends with developmental disabilities and I will be focusing a ton of energy on this blog! I’m just excited to finally dive in full force.
After working grave shifts and weekends last summer, it seems unreal that we will finally have weekends off! Woohoo! Movin’ up in the food chain!
Baby has been kicking up a storm. I feel big pushes in my abdomen all the time, and it’s the craziest feeling. Carter woke up in the middle of the night and felt my belly just in time to feel our little guy kicking and pushing all over the place. I think he’s starting to feel a little cramped in there, but he’s still got lots of growing to do!
But it’s starting to feel more real that there’s a living thing in there. I still can’t quite wrap my head around it, but every little push reminds me of the sweet spirit who is developing in there. We can’t wait to actually meet him and get to know his little personality.
There is all sorts of stress and nerves that come with preparing to be a mom. The title “mom” kind of scares me. I just think of my mom and it feels overwhelming to fill that role! But I have to remind myself that I’m not taking it on all at once. We are starting with one baby, not six! It’s definitely a huge leap of faith trusting that life will fall into place as we experience such a major life change. It is sometimes worrisome. I worry about my mental health having much less freedom to go where I want when I want. I’m nervous about lack of sleep, figuring everything out, finances, and my new job once he comes, which will keep me inside our apartment most of each day. But beside all the worry are so many other feelings!
I feel so much love from Carter. I am truly blessed to have a husband who loves and supports me so much, and who I know will do all in his power to keep caring for me and our baby.
I trust in Heavenly Father. It’s all crazy, but I know that God had a hand in it. I know we were guided by his hand to get pregnant when we did, and he knows that it’s our little boy’s time to come. It brings such peace to know that God has such a greater plan for our family than we can imagine for ourselves.
I feel love for this little babe inside me. I think about the beautiful symbol that he is- created in a loving home as a symbol of his parents’ love. It is mind boggling, really, that his body is created of mine and Carter’s flesh. Created by us with God’s help. He is living evidence of mine and Carter’s love! I am curious to get to know him and see who he is and who he will become.
I am nervous, but excited to be a parent. I am so excited to see Carter as a dad.
I know that our life is never going to be the same after we welcome our baby boy into the world. We will face new trials, stressors, and financial struggles that we have never faced. Frustration, impatience, and fatigue will surely take on a whole new meaning. But our life will also gain a substance that it has yet to experience. Carter and I both believe that we cannot reach our full potential without becoming parents, and this is the first step on that path.
Every person is different. But for us, this is what God intends as the next step in our life. Knowing that, we have to move forward with faith and trust. We know it will all work out, even if logic says we’re in for a crazy ride. I guess we’d better just buckle up and enjoy it for what it’s worth ;).
